Hve you ever realised how hair effects a persons personality , or how people feel about eachother ?? Maybe its just me but i swear hairstyles effect more than just trends . For example, When i met one of my bestfriends she had long , blond dyed hair with a sidefringe, totaly innocent and sweet , after all we were only 12. This suited her quiet and girly personality. A full fringe brought her more confidence and gave her a voice aswell as a bit more of a attitude but her lovelyness remained . Next stage in her journey through hair came a dramatic and drastic change, a spikey bob (think alice cullen but lighter brown and with a longer fringe.) Looked totaly amazing but brought out a certain level of confidence and pride which i guess was kinda annoying but lets face it , she looked better than me, i was probably incerdibly jelouse xD . This labor intensive hairstyle quikly evolved into a chic haircut due to the fact she couldn't be arsed to flick it, this gave her a slightly more sensitive personality, which clashed dramaticaly with my own and caused us to be slightly less close for a long time. However her hair was just changed again. easily the best style so far, she is naturaly one of the prettyest people ive ever met, but this hair cut (think pixie/ boys cut ) makes her look like a supermodel. and her sudden feeling great about herself seems to have made her feel great about other people. We are closer than ever.
Now this may all seem dumb , maybe your right, maybe its hormones, moodswings, distractions but her personality changes at the same time as her hair, weather her hair is the reason or not. Another example could be me. A side fringe gave me more confidence and everything in life seems much bolder and interesting when i have red hair . So after pondering this for a while ive come to a conclusion. The power to look how we want, to have people compliment us, its a confidence thing. it bumps us up or tares us down. i could give another example of how having hair go from long to short seriusly changed a boy i know and his attitude but i wont because lets face it, this post is way too long allready !!

Ok so heres some of my facebook status' which basicaly sum up everything ive been up to without me having to type it all out XD ...
"so after all of that, the two words play on your mind, they linger for a moment, before you let them free. So after all that, when you tell me that your sorry, after all i meant you, and the shit you said to me. So after all that, im left with all the broken pieces, for a moment i accept that we were never meant to be.... so after all that, when ive conqured all your hatered, now i finaly feel, my grip on you is free."

"Darwin deez lastnight were AWESOME not only did they preform all the songs on their album with trademark dances inbetween, but allso preformed a new song !!(dum dum dummmm) AND darwin and the over-energetic (but SERIOUSLY loveable) did some raps !!!! took me by suprise but weirdly worked out great !!"

"having amazing time at the sleepover with Jess Gallimore ッ, Courtney Haymes and Louie Woodcock.....even though Louie and Courtney cant take a JOKE! :L Love them all muchly though.....especially you Jess.....doubt we are going to get any sleep though. Just a couple of *cough* sexual favours...haha Jk. ♥ ♥ "
so theres my life updated ... now for a proper post with a lovely long rant about hair...

This is tough. Very. But im doing ok. He has turned into a bit of a twat by rubbing his new girl in my face, thinking its her that i'm upset about. Its not. She means nothing to me. Infact she is a pretty cool person. Its him. Hearing the hurtfull stuff he is saying about me. Knowing he wants me to be in pain. Its not tears and hugs anymore. Its anger. Betrayal.
Looking on the bright side of life (do do , do do ,do do, da do ) Nikkis party was AMAZING omg murder mysteries are sooo much fun !!! And chinease lanterns !! And seleena pie :')
Singing lesson monday . Ireland soon for music festival. Then Darwin Deeze and halloween. And then ... AUSTRELLIA !!! <3

To be honest i don't need a selfish dick in my life who only needs a summer Holiday to tell someone else he loves her, who flirts constantly with other girls, who treats spending lunchtimes with me as a punishment, who walks away so easily and who makes promises he cant keep. It may hurt like fucking hell but ill get over it one day and years from now when I've found the one I'm meant to be with forever, i probs wont even remember stupid little boy that broke my heart at 13.
So maybe i do still love him, hell that's not gonna change anytime soon, its gonna stay in the corner of my mind no matter what, when you feel like i did, one text dosen't put a stop to how much you care, it just mixes it with unbearable pain, but I'm not gonna break down in front of him, I'm no gonna swear and scream to his face, I'm not gonna tell him ill always love him no matter what, and no matter how much i want to, I'm not gonna take him back. Because if his life is miserable without me, if he misses me, then good. its his own fucking fault. so I'm just gonna pack all his stuff away, clear him out of my head, tare him out of my heart and ignore any messages.

when i hear my favourite song ,
and im shure that he's the one,
i imagine him here with me ,
if only love worked so easily,
i miss him more every single day,
feels he's drfting further away,
i find myself staring at my phone,
for that call to prove im not alone.
And i know i've done stuff wrong,
But when i hear my favourite song,
can't help but think of him.

Back at school, Back with friends, Back in detention and Back waking up at the crak of dawn to wash my hair, Back standing up everymorning on the schoolbuss, Back to doodling through maths lessons, Back to writing lyrics on the inside of my exersise books and Back to lunches in the artroom with my girls ... and louie. Back to a daily routeen...... untill christmas.

Just realised my previouse blog has a pic of my new winter coat without me mentioning it in the writing !! so just to fix this - that is my beutiful coat for this winter which im inlove with and so i have my fingers crossed the weather will get shit soon so i can wear it xxx