The smiles, the trials and everything inbetween.

To be honest i don't need a selfish dick in my life who only needs a summer Holiday to tell someone else he loves her, who flirts constantly with other girls, who treats spending lunchtimes with me as a punishment, who walks away so easily and who makes promises he cant keep. It may hurt like fucking hell but ill get over it one day and years from now when I've found the one I'm meant to be with forever, i probs wont even remember stupid little boy that broke my heart at 13.
So maybe i do still love him, hell that's not gonna change anytime soon, its gonna stay in the corner of my mind no matter what, when you feel like i did, one text dosen't put a stop to how much you care, it just mixes it with unbearable pain, but I'm not gonna break down in front of him, I'm no gonna swear and scream to his face, I'm not gonna tell him ill always love him no matter what, and no matter how much i want to, I'm not gonna take him back. Because if his life is miserable without me, if he misses me, then good. its his own fucking fault. so I'm just gonna pack all his stuff away, clear him out of my head, tare him out of my heart and ignore any messages.