Sunshine , True friends , prince charming , 'sall gooood !!!!

There are curently 3 people making my world go round atm , they know i love them !!!
writing amazing song atm while composing a piano pice to go with it , epic riding lesson today , new story idea in my head , stall on saturday , learning to ignore people who cant get over themselfs LIFES GOOD !!

exhausted, stressed and mega nervouse my brain is working on overload trying to get all the craft stuff prepared of my stall at parwich wakes , all stuff is now packaged with a table lay-out worked out, spent all evening with heather, who cant come despite all the making being a shared effort , she will be spending the weekend up a hill !!
Hoping to see some familliar faces on saturday aswell as the random strangers that come to parwich wakes !!

The sun is shining over manchester and everyone is cheerfull , WHOOPIIEEE !!
This week ive learned that a little sun, a sports day and a street-party was all i needed to get back on track, and now im alive, awake and ready to take on the world !!
Soon to come is wakes week, an old worn tradition in parwich, the hi-up incharge people organise an event for everynight and everyone has a HUGE laugh.
Me and my best-friend-more-like-sister heather have been hard at work using as much creative intelligence as possibe to create some beutiful pieces for this years stall , however , much like i failed to help run our table last year , heather is off walking up hills that weekend (DofE)and so mr.perfect-boyfriend has agreed to help , such a darling !!!
So with glue permantanly under our fingernails and beads inbedded in floorboards me and heather have one more week to compleate the best collection yet !!
Alll i have to do now is survive a week of school.

Bring on the waterworks.

When someone from your past throws themselves back in your face it generally seems a good idea to welcome them back, one piece of advice, don't.
In one week I've hurt my friends, family and boyfriend, and i didn't even realise i was doing it, things have got to change , and FAST.
The moment i dig out of the hole of neglect i fell flat into, i am going to set myself 3 simple targets.
number 1. Don't allow my brain to wander the second i get home , keep focused up until i go to bed (and if things keep going like they are, my nights in bed will no longer involve texting till 12pm)
number 2. Ignore certain people as much as possible so to avoid hurting anyone further.
number 3. make more time for my friends, and this time, treat them like true friends (someone who will easily turn on me) and take more caution with my words.

this time ,
she thought she'd found something new ,
and i could see in her eyes,
she wanted you to feel that way too,
you said you didn't want to know,
now i can see all her smiles are only put on for show .

cos everynight she cries ,
deep inside she dies ,
its not gonna get better ,
she's asking herself why ,
she shouldnt curl up and die,
but baby im not gonna let her .

i promise you .

im gonna hold her hand ,
so she understands,
she's not alone,
she's not alone.
and ill tell her what to do ,
just cos she is without you ,
she's not alone.
she's not alone.

I have decided ,
im not ever gonna let her let go ,
to that smiley girl,
that i used to know.
and you have decided ,
your gonna break her heart ,
not gonna let you,
no im not gonna let you.

'cos im gonna hold her hand,
so she understands,
she's not alone,
she's not alone,
and ill tell her what to do,
even though she's without you,
she's not alone,
no , no.
she's not alone.

pennies in a well ,
a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel ,
fortune teller that says maybe you wont go to hell ,
but I'm not scared at all ,
of the cracks in the crystal ,
the cracks in the Crystal ball.